My Life 2025

February 27, 2025 Today, I woke up early but only managed to get 1 hour and 30 minutes of sleep. I had two big coffees and one green tea to keep me going. I completed most of my pending work and handed off a few things to my colleague. Everything looks good, but there hasn't been much improvement on the career front. I'll try to start working on it. I know I've been on this for a long time, and it's been nearly two weeks since I last updated anything.  Let's hope I start soon. Until then.

February 26, 2025 I'm gradually getting a better grasp of the work I'm doing and learning new things. However, I need to focus more and make better use of my time. As the month is about to end, I don't want to rush things, but I should show some commitment to my goals, which has been an issue since the beginning. Not much to update for today. Let's catch up tomorrow. Until then...

February 25th, 2025 It's been a normal day for me—woke up, did my work, and took care of a few things. I was browsing reels on Instagram. I know I've sunk back into it, but that's not the problem now. I came across a video of a young boy, probably in his early 20s, who spoke about porn with more maturity than me. He explained how watching porn videos encourages the violence inflicted on women to create those videos. That’s not all—he also spoke about how these videos change our perspective on the outside world. I completely agree. I was worried about why I was like this. The more I watch or relate to those videos, the more I internalize that mindset. I've never had a good relationship with any woman, not even with my wife. That’s because of my perception. I believe the more I control my mind, the more it will help me. I feel this is the most productive thinking I’ve done in a long time. I feel good about it, but I’m worried I might sink in again. The last time I masturb...

Feb 24th 2025 , everything is in place work wise need to focus more and try to learn more until move to different job . Just because iam planning to switch job I should not neglect the one I am working now. I might get more work pressure now will try to cope up and make room for career as well . Until then.

Feb 23rd 2024 I woke up early revised previous concepts of devops and took rest and broke my my diet but still on 81.7 kg let's go long way ahead . Until then ...

Woke up early as usual , took some time in completing some work related stuff. Nothing on career side. Some house chores and cleared up few things . Nothing great done but been productive . From next week it's going to be different and close two complete two months of this year need to be ready and work on things . Will focus more on career front , until then..

Made use of most of the day . The day I am talking here 21st Feb 2025  Postponed most of my  work formonday . Did not mastrubate today . Let's home feb 21st 2025 is the start of new things and adapting new things . Feeling some new energy. I know my logging is not that great compared to initial days  Will try to update as many details as possible . Until then...

Let's mark today 20th Feb 2025 to be the last shitty day and complete all tasks before going off. I have moved everything to Friday for now but will make sure I don't have anything for Monday . Lot of dandruff need to check that . Idont think there is hairfall but lot of dandruff. Tomorrow will be different.

Today is 20th Feb but I am updating my journey for 19th Feb 2025 . I mastrubated again did not feel like doing anything at allfelt constipation for the whole day . Slogged like a bum . I really hated it . This is my threshold of maintaining things  Easily giving up . I will not anyways will try to be more productive for sure . Until then...

Today morning I started off with lot of confidence but mastrubated multiple times which reduced it back to low again. Most of my day went bad not much to tell also . Had breakfast lunch and dinner out of my diet after 40 days counting from first of January. I can set this day as worst day of the year and set the back mark for that so don't want to go down than that .

Today is Monday woke up early nearly 3:45 am and started working  Watched phone for some time but later put complete focus on work for nearly 3 hours continuously and got a good progress in work . Career part I haven't got any progress but will start eventually. Morning had a great urge for mastrution but controlled it that's when browsed phone for sometime. Overall it's a productive day. Got some good news in work got some pay raise but not that great need to switch asap with this new package . Somehow I need to get to 400k package which will help me a lot and somewhat my wife can take a break . Hope forcthe best . Until then...

Woke up early watched shorts in YouTube did house chores as it's sunday got fruits and groceries. Prepapred lunch  Slept in the afternoon  Typical sunday nothing productive in work of career. Coming to an end of the month in two weeks will try to accomplish as much as possible  Wife is feeling bad about her pain I am not sure how to soothe her. I am still angry and some kind of ego stopping me to console her much . But I am feeling bad about it . I am pretty much exhausted with her continuous worry about her health . Literally thinking to get her to physoclogist once . But she is stuborn about it so don't want that message now .  Lets see how it goes . Until then....

Another day started but started off with mastrubating only once . Hope this clears out my mind for sometime . Today is total havoc , mastrubated thrice ate twice in the night. Weight gained 1.5kg  Going to have ice cream now . It's ok I just need to take this and leave it now doesn't carry forward. Will stay the same . Until then...

Hello again Another day down, some expectations were not met but it's just a reschedule do not worried much about it. Had plan to go out with colleagues for outing but wife said no as her pain has increased. Felt bad as I am literally stuck at home not going anywhere could not plan anything because her health issues . Only places we go are hospitals. I don't want to take this to heart but feeling little low lately. Anyways day ended in bad mood  little stressed out want to mastrubate but holding off for now. Until then...

Today was a hectic day at work. I managed to handle the issues, but it took up most of my time and energy.  I hope my efforts will be recognized by my colleagues. I know it's okay not to be productive every single day. Focusing on one thing at a time is a good approach. I felt the urge for sex and watched porn, but I didn't masturbate. I think that's acceptable as long as I maintain control. I only did it to relieve stress. I should find a new, interesting hobby that I can do at home to help manage stress.  Something non-physical. I'll think about it. Until then...

Feb 12th 2025 Today my weight reached less than 80kgs after a long time . I still not satisfied with it my goal is to get 5more kgs down  Physical goals are taking shape after started my diet plan from Jan 1st 2025  Only boiled nuts in the morning  Afternoon anything in less quantity  Night blended fruits with cucumber and coconut milk  Since last few days I am adding nuts like cashew and badam  I see significant change in weight but nothing in appearance. While coming to my work and career goals today is not that great with respect to that still need more focus on it. Until then ....

Hello again, Today is complete chaos , lot of things happened. My laptop ran into issue I went back to office with my kid  Got my laptop replacement reinstalled all required apps From office been to doctor office Waiting for more than 1 hour  At last got proper sleep  Today haven't got much of anything fealt like a slow day but lot of problems  Somehow I managed and skipped those for tomorrow. Let's see how it goes . Until then...

Feb 10 th 2025 , one of the productive day of my life recently. I have learnt things which helped me in my work . Career wise I have not done much but work I got lot of things right .  I am happy for that. Will continue the same approach and work . But only thing I exhausted too much this will impact my next day I should start making boundaries and make sure everything is taken care .  As mentioned I am exhausted so this is all I can update. Until then...

Today was a good day! I'm happy with the progress I'm making towards a better version of myself. I treated myself to a small chocolate and cake to satisfy a craving – I felt I deserved it. I'm committed to continuing my efforts and achieving my goals.  The more I put in, the easier things become. I need to catch up on a few budget entries, which I'll do after logging today's expenses. I'm a little concerned that giving in to my sugar cravings might make me more susceptible to other urges, like sex.  However, I'm managing it so far and hope I can continue to do so. The urges aren't too strong at the moment, so I think I can handle them. Otherwise, everything is going well. I made good progress in both my career and work today, which is where this sense of accomplishment comes from. This feeling is great, and I'll keep it going. Until next time...

Hello again, Today was a good day for my career progress, even though my brain is juggling multiple things. Somehow, I'm coping with it. I've taken small steps, but in a good way. I had a massive sugar craving but managed to resist it. I bought a cake but didn't eat it—I've kept it aside just in case the craving returns. I'm going to start adding dates to my entries because I missed yesterday's entry for February 8th, 2025, and I'm doing it now on February 9th, 2025. Things are getting a bit out of hand, even though I have the mobile application. It slipped my mind a day ago. I was thinking of continuing this for a long time, but I missed it. I won't let this bring me down. I'll take it easy. It's common—I'm just a human, not a superhero. This happens, and I won't be too hard on myself. I'll continue with this. In the past, I used to feel bad and stop completely, only to start over and fail again. That's how my mindset was. This t...

Hello Again, I'm completing my first week of this exercise today, and I've learned a lot about prioritizing tasks and identifying what's truly important.  It feels a bit late to be learning this at 35, but better late than never! I've found the Ivy Lee Method, the Eisenhower Matrix, and the 2-Minute Rule (if it takes less than two minutes, do it now) to be particularly helpful.  It's been a crazy week, though. I'm looking forward to continuing this conversation next week, and I hope I can say the same for next month and even next year.  I'm hoping I have the patience and commitment to keep it up. Until then...

Hello, today was okay. I took a lot of rest and didn't do much work or focus on my career. I had a good sleep in the afternoon. I have this mindset to start fresh every time, which is why I often forget things I have already learned or known about. I should stop doing that; it may be harsh, but starting over sometimes makes me even slower. I work on things until something more lucrative comes in, and I jump into it. This is something I do every time. Instead of focusing on the important thing that requires more effort, I tend to go for the easier tasks, so I don’t need to put more effort into them. This is where I have been lacking. I should start working on the important things. Prioritize things accordingly. I know my mindset has already been concrete; it takes time, but I will win for sure. I missed my entry for yesterday, which I updated today. This will not happen again unless I am stuck on something important. I will get this on my mobile as well, so I can take notes and elab...

Hello again, Today has been crazy. I indulged in cupcakes and noodles, things I had stopped eating since January 1st. It feels like I'm back to old habits, but not completely, as I ate very little sweets and missed out on my diet tonight. Both work and career are blocked; I couldn't add anything productive to either. I missed out on adding my notes for February 5th, 2025, as I was stuck on some work-related tasks until 12 AM. Now, at 6:29 PM, I am updating the highlights for the 5th, so everything feels vague to me. One thing I remember is that my wife and I discussed the amount we are going to accumulate and our next steps to get a new house. We are working on it, but we are poorer compared to many families our age, so I am more worried about it. Let's see how things go until then...

Hello, welcome to another day of my life. Today is not bad or good, it's a mix of emotions. I feel like I am getting a taste of responsibilities, and it's very bad. It's pushing me back to my old habits, but I am trying to be strong. I have done some calculations on what my savings will be for this month, and it looks promising. But if that's all I save, I can never get settled. I need to work hard and somehow move out of the rotting job I am in. It's giving me the salary I need for now, but not for long. I want to achieve more. I am setting goals now, and I will try my best. The more I think of things, I feel like what I am doing is like writing a diary. It's soothing me. I don't want my family to suspect something is up, so I am doing this at the end of my day. The only thing I have is that every time I hear the words "great things take time," I will remember my wife's words. She will immediately say, "It's been six years." The ...

Hello. Welcome another day down. Today, it’s not much. I woke up early and got a lot of things done related to work. I had a bath early and felt good, but still felt like I am not productive enough. I think I am productive in some aspects, but I need to work on a few more. I have been controlling things before they go out of hand, like impulsive purchases. But I still went with one. I feel like it will be a good investment. Let’s see how it goes. Today, I feel like I am taking a few things very hard which are not in my hands. Something happened for a different reason and I am taking it to heart, messing up my thinking, and ultimately I am giving up. I think that’s one more thing I need to take care of. I cannot please everybody in the world. I should stop being that and start being the person I want to be. Comparison is something I have never done, but when others do it, I get irritated because of my inferiority complex. If I react to someone, they might think I am jealous or something...

Hello, I am back with Chapter 2. I feel like chapters might go up, so I am planning to switch to days instead of chapters. A lot of people do vlogs now, like Day 1, Day 2. I am going a little old-fashioned. As I mentioned before, my only intention for this blog is to reflect my thoughts to myself, so it will help me focus more. Before I jump into my day today, I just want to boast about a few things I have achieved this year. From January 1st, 2025, I haven't drunk alcohol, and I have stopped masturbating for nearly 30 days. Yeah, I gave in to masturbating, but I am taking it in control now. So nothing to do with whether it is Jan 1st or Feb 1st. So I have been making some rigid rules for myself to get things in place. Drinking alcohol, I can give an exception as I am a social drinker for now. Strict no to masturbating, I feel like it's been the culprit for me since a long time, to be exact from the time I was 16 years old. So let's go with the update on what happened today...

Finding My Path: A Journey of Reflection and Change My life has always been comfortable, never had the complete taste of responsibilities as it's been taken care of by my father before marriage and by my wife after marriage. Some feel it's a boon, yes, it's a boon but if you are a person who has a vision of the future, it's going to be harsh in the coming future. The respect you get now is not earned as it's a byproduct, the same will continue and you will feel the difference. I don't have the vision to see the future or that kind of thinking. But I have seen some people in my life who show myself just like a mirror. Why I'm Here This brings me here to be more open and share my opinion on life and my journey on how it's going on. I am going to be as discreet as possible not because someone might recognize me, just want to see how I can manage in that way. Current Status Let me share my current status: I am a 35-year-old Indian male, been working for near...