Tales of Procrastination to Productivity Day -25

February 25th, 2025

It's been a normal day for me—woke up, did my work, and took care of a few things.

I was browsing reels on Instagram. I know I've sunk back into it, but that's not the problem now.

I came across a video of a young boy, probably in his early 20s, who spoke about porn with more maturity than me.

He explained how watching porn videos encourages the violence inflicted on women to create those videos.

That’s not all—he also spoke about how these videos change our perspective on the outside world.

I completely agree. I was worried about why I was like this. The more I watch or relate to those videos, the more I internalize that mindset.

I've never had a good relationship with any woman, not even with my wife.

That’s because of my perception. I believe the more I control my mind, the more it will help me.

I feel this is the most productive thinking I’ve done in a long time.

I feel good about it, but I’m worried I might sink in again. The last time I masturbated was February 20th, 2025—let’s see how far I can go.

I want this to continue. Wishing for the best.

Until then...

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