My Life 2025

June 30th 2025 Got my salary done lot of office work but stuck in crazy traffic somewhat reached home . Hope it would be better tomorrow. Cleared all payments of CC and updated my Google sheets. Looking good . No swimming today . Feeling little stressed want to do it let's see if I can do it .

June 29th 2025 Taken care of few things of hone chores and finished 2 hours swimming  That's all nothing much no mast***bating as well mostly clean as possible. Now I need to start reducing weight and start reading more I am lacking lot of things

June 28th 2025 Just same old thing again completed two hours of swimming and thought of having some drinks but no one there I don't want to drink alone anymore or I little scared now.  I don't know why everytime I say something they tend to pick up in the wrong way . I slipped away about some financials and that come up in a different way about my character that I am boasting about that financial thing . No idea how I can fix this but I am least bothered .

 June 27th 2025 Same old story nothing changed let's see what fate will take me to. Did it again nothing much to update. watching Squid games binge watched most of it by 3 AM of 28th Jun2025

June 26th 2025 Woke up late missed a call and some what taken care of things but took half day leave because I am tired . And did the same old things. That's all noting special or productive 

June 25th 2025 Did it overnight and in the morning as well before going to office didnot worry much as I kept it cool and took care of office things maturely and cleared all of my work . So I came home went for swimming and had my dinner and ready to sleep remembered I didnot update my journal successfully completed done for the day or not let's see.

June 24th 2025 I have done it multiple time today didnot feel guilty or anything just did it emotion less Like stress relief I don't know if it makes sense but I have done it that's the update here.

June 23rd 2025 Nothing much done I tried studying for some time but went for house hunt again so boring day .

June 22,2025 Today marks my first daughter's birthday. Unfortunately, could not wish her due to time differences and some disagreements. I deeply miss my brother and his family. I hope we reconcile and reach amicable terms somedayI did not accomplish much in terms of career today; I spent time exploring options for a new house. Although nothing fixed, I plan to continue the search and see I can find something suitable. After returning home, I watched movies and rested. I did sleep but spent time sitting quietly.

June 21st, 2025 As mentioned earlier, I have gained self-control over my emotions, but the only area where I still struggle is managing my diet. I need start paying attention to this aspect as I consumed heavy food and have been making random food choices. The more I give in and whatever is available, the harder it becomes to sustain I will work on addressing this issue.  I did not accomplish much. I attempted to resolve the problem I have been facing since last week, but unfortunately, I was unable to fix it. I also went house hunting. urgently to address job situation, as it is causing significant distress to me others.

June 20th, 2025 Today, I woke up with most of my work already completed, so I spent some time clearing my queue. I felt unmotivated and preoccupied with thoughts from yesterday. After a long time, I resorted to masturbation and logged into Instagram, only to find that no one reached out or shown any concern. This made me question why I should care. As a result, I have decided to my social a bare minimum. Continued my hand work four times the whole day but I did not feel much of guilt or for more I just did it for stress and I am not feeling bad for that . started my medication for Vitamin D and B12  lets  see if this will reduce my hair fall 

June 19th, 2025 Today was. My wife spoke harshly to me, which made me feel upset. Everything seems unfavorable, and nothing has been.  I am feeling very worried.  However, I managed complete my medical check-up, and here is the progress so far:  May 2023: 25.941   Jun 2024: 25.8470   Nov 2024: 18.7   Mar 2025: 14.24   Jun2025: 9.47   Let's see how things progress. 

June 18th, 2025 Today, I went to the office, completed my work and returned home. I learned some valuable concepts about network subnetting, such as how to set up IP addresses for hosts according to our requirements and the role of a gateway it supposed to be local. After that, I attended two swimming sessions, but I became exhausted. So, I returned home, had food, and slept well, as my body was aching significantly.

June 17th, 2025 I have finished my work and decided not to discuss much about work home, it does not feel appropriate.  I will it to myself and focus on tasks I have beening.   my KA quota for this quarter, but I need to write a few more which I am determined to.  I have begun working hands-on VMs plan to SnowCommander understand its functionality.  I did not log in to it yet.  Tomorrow is going to be exciting. 

June 16th, 2025 Returned from the office and initiated some tasks to AWS and other topics, but did not make significant progress resulting in an unproductive day

 15th June 2025  Nothing I have done productive 

June 14th, 2025 Not much accomplished today, just attended a few tasks.  Missed my swimming class again, with no attendance this time.  Tomorrow is the scheduled blood test appointment for both my wife and me. test is intended to determine thyroid levels, enabling to plan workouts accordingly and begin the appropriate medications.  Looking forward to this. 

June 13th,2025 Completed most of my office-related tasks before my child went to school.  Experienced stomach discomfort in the morning but managed to eat well.  Discussed an issue with theOps team and also spoke with Abdullah. Shared the incident with him, and he apologized, mentioning that he had made an effort on my behalf but missed something minor.  This gave the confidence to take up challenges and start working on them.  I will continue tasks I have been procrastinating on.  I am determined to achieve my goals. Life is unpredictable, so I will make the most of it and enjoy every moment

June 12th, 2025Today is my child's 4th birthday. We did not celebrate and it passed as normal day. We skipped swimming class due to heavy rains. Most of the time spent discussing the plane crash. Felt deeply saddened by that incident. Always remain for the best.

June 11th, 2025 I did not accomplish much today, as I failed to the task I set for classes missed my swimming class due to rain. It was not a great day.   let's hope everything will be back on track tomorrow.

June 10th, 2025 In the office, I addressed tasks that had been pending for a time. I resumed the AWS session and will strive to it while simultaneously completing DevOps tasks.

June 9th, 2025 Skipped swimming due to the center being closed for a holiday. Woke up, returned to the office, and tackled tasks I had been putting off for a while. I’ll need to dedicate more time to work since my colleague is leaving before me.

June 8th, 2025 Back at the pool, I was able to swim with ease but noticed something was slowing me down. I removed the diamond ring I had been wearing and felt somewhat different. I was also doing great in the interview until I put that ring on. I know such things shouldn't happen, but my mind is leaning in that direction. Not sure if it's true—let's see.

June 7th, 2025 Watched two back-to-back movies, had a good sleep. The kid is recovering and planning to return to swimming from tomorrow. This is how the day went. Better days will come for sure.

June 6th, 2025 These past days have been hectic as I’ve been busy taking care of my kid, who hasn’t been well, with hospital visits and monitoring her while managing office work. I even had to take a day off because I wasn’t getting enough sleep. She’s feeling somewhat better now but still needs monitoring, which has been holding me back from focusing on work. I realize I need to set aside some time for my own things. The positive side is I don’t have any urges anymore, and losing that interview seems to have changed me a bit. I’m less concerned about trivial matters and feel the need to start dedicating more time to important things.

June 5th, 2025  Same as this day, I don't remember anything. I'll update in the coming days on what I've been working on.

June 4th, 2025 Same as this day, I don't remember anything. I'll update in the coming days on what I've been working on.

June 3rd, 2025 I don't remember much, but I went through a lot of interpersonal struggles.  I hope to overcome it soon. 

June 2nd, 2025 I felt a bit of confidence in myself today and didn’t hesitate to take action or start over when needed.  I reached out to people I thought might not accept me, but they were ready and always welcoming. I realize now that things weren’t right on my end.  In my mind, I’ve set up a few goals I want to start working on and plan to give them a strong start.  I had three tasks on my to-do list yesterday, but I managed to complete only one. I’m still a little lazy, but I’ll overcome it.  Thanks to this journaling, I want to leave my negative thoughts here and keep only positive thoughts in my mind.  I feel happy now and want to make others in my life happy too. I hope I gain the potential and strength to do it.

June 1st, 2025 I've completed 4 months of journaling. Nothing noteworthy has been done, but it's good to maintain the habit. I'll continue and make sure to update important things.  I want to share it with my wife too, as she thinks I'm hiding something from her. I haven't earned her trust yet, and I don't know when my actions will convince her.  Today has been another boring, unproductive day, but tomorrow is a new day. Let's start it on a good note.

May 31st, 2025 Woke up a little late, didn’t do much, just handled some home chores.  It’s been a different kind of day—I didn’t shy away from some things and took action.  I experienced an embarrassing moment unlike any I’ve had before, but I handled it very maturely.  I don’t want to share it with anyone, and no one needs to know.  It’s all good. I’m still watching shorts, but I’ll stop gradually—it’ll take some time.